Had a hard time meeting my protein requirements over the weekend. Saturday, I attended a surprise party and they had a taco bar (kill me now! MY FAVORITE!!) I had a tiny bit of beef and a tiny bit of beans. That's it. I felt okay about it. Went to my Mom's and she was serving chicken enchiladas, rice, beans and homemade brownies w/walnuts (kill me again!) At least I am never hungry so it wasn't as difficult as it sounds. Sunday, I tried a poached egg again and it seems eggs and I are no longer friends. Everytime I try an egg it doesn't end well. I end up feeling really nauseaus and uncomfortable. Same thing with anything tomato based. I went to a Memorial Service that ran much longer than expected and we needed to get back immediately afterward so I didn't eat anything else until about 6pm. (some pinto beans and cheese). Not good. Same kind of thing kind of happened today when I was unable to drink the breakfast drink, didn't eat again until 1pm when I had a couple bites of a white bean and kale soup (disgusting) and didn't eat again until about 7pm (chicken, lemon juice, salt, pepper). No bueno. I will be so happy when I can actually eat somewhat normal food again. I miss flavor.
I'm sorry that this entry is kind of negative. As I said, I am feeling kinda grumpy and I am thinking about food and it's pissing me off. It's not because I'm hungry. It's just because I miss feeling normal. You know? I was watching "Kim and Kourtney..." last night and I swear that every single scene was them eating. I kept pointing it out to Morgan and I am not joking it was literally every scene. I hate that I notice stuff like that now. I am so jealous because I want to be normal and eat a damned corned beef sandwich if I fucking feel like it!
That being said, I KNOW this will all be worth it. In fact, it already is. And....I will leave you on a positive note: Today, I bought TWO new pairs of shoes.
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